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hearing about the glorious lives of others drives some people into deeper despair…you’re just boasting about everything we have never had or experienced. I rarely get a really sharp, tuned-in person on the suicide hotline, it is mostly low IQ people who “want to help. I just want to die so that im not labeled a burden and they can just toss out my belongings from my little apartment and scatter my ashes some where and be done with their mom . The more I try to get help the more I think I should just end it because if my life is going to be like this no matter what I do then I don’t want to be here. In January 2021 she was diagnosed with AML leukemia, went through a bone marrow transplant and along the way got terrible peripheral nephropathy in both legs and feet.
I rent a room but haven’t been working, can’t pay my rent about to be homeless, everyday I just keep thinking how can I end my life.I grew up in abusive foster homes and have struggled with severe mental health issues my whole life. Talking to some one does not help and I find that some times I really have to fight what I am feeling, I am sick of this corrupt world and the people in it, governments are one of the most corrupt organizations along with the courts and police, so what is the damn point, guilty people get free pass from a prison sentence while innocent people get put into prison, on top of that friends and family steal and lie to you and people have no respect who the hell wants to live in a cesspit of evil like this, I’m just waiting for the third world to begin because the human race are good at one thing the annihilation of itself and everything it touches due to idiots running our countries, I FEEL I WOULD BE BETTER OFF DEAD I WILL BE FREE. I think maybe my early years roughed me up, and I believe Neil Young’s song “Needle and the Damage Done” plays a big part in my inner moods (as does my PTSD). I don’t think she will outlive me because she is such a tough old girl and has been through a pretty rough life herself having endured the Great Depression, losing her father and her brothers. Even my closest support worker who I have worked with for 2 and a half years told me just last week that she didn’t she would have been able to cope with what I am dealing with.
You get older,weaker, more tired, and your looking back at a life where your best was never enough no matter how hard you pushed yourself. there were dozens of weekends when we were locked in our bedroom without food from Fri afternoon until Monday morning. I still struggle with pain and anguish and I don’t have it all figured out but I truly know that I am worthwhile and I have someone to talk to.
They didn’t even give me my mandated urinalysis and I began withdrawals during 17 hour trip home (not fun).
I am a single father, overworked (most likely soon unemployed), abandoned by my family, my wife left, I am in a foreign country, I have no social or societal support. He and I both struggle with depression and all of these rejections have made it so much worse, He is at the point where he wants to give up. Yes, you might feel profoundly hopeless again, and I hope what you’ve written here will remind you of reasons to live.I cannot apologize for those who are nasty to you, but I can pray for you now, at this moment, that Angels would be sent around by God, the Source to help you through. I also pray for you now that you also receive the love you need, from God, someone and other beings. A safety plan is helpful, too, in case your desire for death morphs into fantasizing about, or making plans to, kill yourself. Unfortunately, i believe that God is perfect and for whatever reason Satan is behind all the issues going on. Yep it’s happened , the past 2 years, already for those mentally ill, living in poverty, disabled and so on.
We often actually need someone who will be there for us, and not a person who is only going through the motions “trying” to help. Any extra money is spent on them,for things to make them happy I do nothing for myself because I feel I don’t deserve it. Don’t know your details, so I can’t say much more except I can understand from my experience of that landmark age. I see that a lot of people commenting are suffering with very serious life matters as well as intense desires for their life to end. To suggest things will get better or to think about all the happy times is like telling a a fire to put itself out-its too late!With age and the decline in health you have reached the point that whatever hope you held onto is absolutely gone and all that is left is an ever increasingly pathetic fight for survival and the loss of the last remnants dignity you might still possess. You also might want to see a doctor to make sure there’s no physical condition” I saw my doctor and they said theres no physical way of determining depression. The peachy-toned ones are the majority, the rest albeit aware, can do little to reverse this decadent direction.